The identity and ambiguity of San Antonio’s multi-artist: Merykid


Nick Mery is a Lebanese-American creative director under the pseudonym “Merykid”. He was born and raised in San Antonio.

Within the Lebanese community, he rooted himself in his church ─ where he sang for the first time at the age of 7. The encouragement of music in his family paved the way for his foundations in singing and songwriting, leading to film production.

In 2018, Mery received the American Lebanon Foundation Cultural Fellowship. This allowed him to travel to the lands of his inheritance. The sights and sounds of Lebanon prompted him to collect visual footage as a “souvenir” at first. Later, it inspired him to compile the collected footage and produce a short documentary titled “In Dreams: A Love Letter to Lebanon”.

“[I] I felt compelled to make this documentary in order to share the beauty and strength of Lebanon: a country that has been the root of my cultural identity for 37 years,” Mery said.

“In Dreams: a love letter to Lebanon” has been officially selected for the Cine Paris Film Festival which will take place in 2023. It was the official selection of the Lebanese Independent Film Festival for 2022.

“In Dreams: a love letter to Lebanon” was written and directed by Mery.

Before making her mark in the film industry, Mery worked on her music career.

The album “The Raccoon” was released in 2010 ─ as an auditory musical experience about a man building a rocket that goes into space, alluding to Mery wanting to escape her health problems.

Diagnosed with an autoimmune disease in 2007, Mery clung to writing music as an outlet for lamenting his illness.

He returned to music as “Merykid”, a nickname given by his high school friends.

However, in 2021, Mery’s health has declined significantly. He was taken to the emergency room for an operation.

I’m really, really sick. And it was really hard. I mean, I ended up being bedridden for almost a year. Stuck in this place where I couldn’t get out and really live a life,” Mery said.

After the surgery, Mery lost 60 pounds and battled body dysmorphia. His physical abilities weren’t the same before. It was a setback, but didn’t stop Mery from releasing another album, “DEATHBLOOM” this year with his longtime friend and collaborator, drummer Brandon Guerra.

Locally in San Antonio, Mery began renaming herself with animal masks. The mask gave comfort and also ambiguity to his identity as an artist ─ not conforming to a single title and contributed to body dysmorphia.


Nick Mery / Photographed by Bryan De La Garza

One of the masks Mery puts on to show her versatility as an artist.

“…when I put the mask on, all of a sudden I had this kind of constant image to lock myself into, and it just made me feel a little bit better, you know?” Mery explained.

He revealed himself in public mask, seen in collaborations with local San Antonians, recently releasing “Faster” a music video with Catwalk, winner of the Summer of Music DJ Battle 2022.

“My identity as an artist is that I don’t necessarily need to have a form that people recognize. If you once strip away the layer of your identity of who you are as an artist, you find there’s a lot of freedom and suddenly you’re just able to do whatever you want.


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